Levels are still rising slowly, but the nurse told me not to worry.  I have to get blood tests every 48 hours, and it's exhausting!  My levels have tripled since my first test so  I'm trying hard to be positive and not freak out.  It's very hard for a neurotic person like me.  I go back on Friday for another blood test.  In the meantime, I do feel nauseous and tired!  Keep praying!

Had the second blood test today and my levels went up, but they weren't doubled.  Of course I'm freaked out but we are doing another test on Tuesday, which is exactly two weeks from my embryo transfer date.  PRAY that the levels increase a lot -  I never expected this part of the process to be so hard! It never ends!!!

Since we were married:
1,760 days of trying, thinking about trying, thinking about treatment, figuring out how to pull money together, crying out of frustration, crying from despair and crying for no reason
I lost my job
Dan lost his job
Built up close to 35k of debt
Crossed the pond for treatment in Europe
4 three hour trips to Augusta for treatment
Countless ultrasounds, surgeries, poking, prodding and blood drawn so many times I look like a heroin addict
Acupuncture
Chiropractic visits
Diet plans
Eliminating toxins
Going gluten free
Juicing fasts
Psychic visits
Hypnotherapy
Spiritual cleansing
Holding it all in to be happy for friends' pregnancies
Puking out of cars
Yelling at apathetic doctors
Nearly suffering a stroke
Popping painkillers, vitamins, herbs, minerals and fertility shakes
Hours of research spent on the internet
Support groups
Buying meds on the black market
Friends and family donating money
Friends and family giving us unconditional love
Two dogs to save our sanity and make us feel like parents
Thousands of pep talks
Countless holidays that remind us we are childless

But finally.....we are pregnant!!!!!!!!  It's still very early though so I'm terrified.  I have another blood test on Sunday to see if my hcg levels are rising.  If they are, they will do an ultrasound in two weeks.  Please keep praying  -  we are so thrilled but we've been through so much and fear and worry are all we know!  Thank you all for all the love, support and prayer!  We hope this journey is finally turning around!!!!

In the two week wait now.  Nothing to report other than my ass is killing me from the nightly progesterone shots.  I had to attach a photo of the needle that goes into my butt muscle every night.  I HOPE THIS WORKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Transferred 3 embryos this morning and things went really well. I have to rest today and tomorrow.  The other 3 didn't grow to their expectations so we hope this worked because we don't have a back up!!

Still incubating

Woke up this morning to a call from the embryologist. All six embryos are growing well!  He said five look exceptional and one is satisfactory.  They recommended that I do a five day transfer so the blastocysts can form and they can choose the best ones to transfer.  My appointment is Tuesday morning.  Until then I can keep taking the meds and relax. Thanks for all the amazing support.  Love to all.

Magic six

Six has always been my favorite number.  It was always my softball jersey number.  So it makes sense that again, we have six fertilized eggs.  They are growin in the incubator today.  Pray HARD that they all grow healthy and make it to at least day three!  I'm sitting on pins and needles and need major distraction.....,transfer will be Sunday.  Butt shots start Sunday as well.   Dan is looking forward to that ;). Xoxo

They got 14 eggs. The last two times they got 11 so this is great.  Won't know anything else until tomorrow.  Resting all day at home with my pups.  Totally out of it right now and loving it.  If I could only feel this relaxed all the time.........

Trigger tonight!

I went in for my latest blood work and ultrasound and I have several huge follicles on both sides of my ovaries so I have the thumbs up to give myself the trigger shot tonight.  The trigger shot is given so that your eggs will be released into the follicles and 24 hours later, the egg retrieval takes place.  I go in Thursday morning for the retrieval.  Please pray that they get a ton of eggs and that they fertilize and GROW.

Today is day 6 of stimulation and I'm feeling very bloated and uncomfortable.  This is a good thing.  I had bloodwork and an ultrasound this morning and I have several large follicles on my right ovary and a few good ones on the left and my lining looks perfect.  The doctor was happy.  They will call me later about the bloodwork but they said I shouldn't worry.  I go back again for the same routine on Sunday morning and then have to go in every day next week.  The shots are going well but I can't sleep.....my boss rocks though and is very cool about letting me work from home.  That's all for now.  Keep up the prayers and good vibes.....we are halfway there!!

I’m in my 20’s, I’m sure I’m fertile!
I’m not ready to get pregnant, we want to wait for a while before we have kids.
We’d like to start a family, just not now.
Will being on the pill for several years affect my chances of conceiving?