I had lunch last week with a friend that I had not seen in a long time and she asked me why I haven't been blogging. I told her that my posts were too depressing and I thought it was self indulgent and that I was bumming others out. But she reminded me why I started it in the first place.....to help others understand our plight and to hopefully educate people on the ups and downs of male/female infertility. So I'm back (at least for now).
As Dan and I enter another childless holiday season...we are filled with mixed emotions. On one hand, Christmas for me is such a magical time. It has always been my favorite time of year and I always jump in to it wholeheartedly. From putting up decorations to throwing my annual ornament party...I love it so much. On the other hand, we watch as others post photos of their children with Santa, prep them for pageants and school events and parties, assemble their yearly Christmas photo card and scurry all over town trying to find them the perfect toy. This ache in my heart stays with me for weeks. We won't be complaining about how to get all the shopping done or how to make all these holiday parties and children shows.....other than the barks of our precious pets, the house remains relatively quiet. I don't write this to make you feel sorry for us, I write it because I want you to take a moment over these next few weeks and appreciate every moment. Embrace the chaos. Because I can guarantee that there are several couples out there that would LOVE for those chores, engagements and credit card charges to be theirs. Take the time to sit around the fire with hot cocoa and hug your babies....they grow so fast and need their holidays to be made magical. And pray for Dan and me. We are trying hard not to focus on the baby quest. For the moment, we are taking time to just focus on ourselves and our health. My instinct is to dive right back in to figure out what to do next (and I admit I have done some serious research already) but I too need to take the time to stop and smell the roses and enjoy these moments with nieces, nephews, friends and family.
Much love for a wonderful holiday season! xoxo
Z Baby Quest: A couple's journey through infertility into adoption
Monday, November 24, 2014
I had lunch last week with a friend that I had not seen in a long time and she asked me why I haven't been blogging. I told her that my posts were too depressing and I thought it was self indulgent and that I was bumming others out. But she reminded me why I started it in the first place.....to help others understand our plight and to hopefully educate people on the ups and downs of male/female infertility. So I'm back (at least for now).
As Dan and I enter another childless holiday season...we are filled with mixed emotions. On one hand, Christmas for me is such a magical time. It has always been my favorite time of year and I always jump in to it wholeheartedly. From putting up decorations to throwing my annual ornament party...I love it so much. On the other hand, we watch as others post photos of their children with Santa, prep them for pageants and school events and parties, assemble their yearly Christmas photo card and scurry all over town trying to find them the perfect toy. This ache in my heart stays with me for weeks. We won't be complaining about how to get all the shopping done or how to make all these holiday parties and children shows.....other than the barks of our precious pets, the house remains relatively quiet. I don't write this to make you feel sorry for us, I write it because I want you to take a moment over these next few weeks and appreciate every moment. Embrace the chaos. Because I can guarantee that there are several couples out there that would LOVE for those chores, engagements and credit card charges to be theirs. Take the time to sit around the fire with hot cocoa and hug your babies....they grow so fast and need their holidays to be made magical. And pray for Dan and me. We are trying hard not to focus on the baby quest. For the moment, we are taking time to just focus on ourselves and our health. My instinct is to dive right back in to figure out what to do next (and I admit I have done some serious research already) but I too need to take the time to stop and smell the roses and enjoy these moments with nieces, nephews, friends and family.
Much love for a wonderful holiday season! xoxo
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