Just a quick update about the adoption.  We have spoken to the lawyers in the state where the birth mom lives and got a ton of information. We also got an expensive estimate for all their work.  Being in infertility hell for the last 8 years has depleted our savings, our credit and we've accepted so many wonderful donations that we could never ask that of anyone again.  We are trying to figure it all out. We are trying to negotiate a lower fee.  We will do everything in our power.  Stay tuned!

I'm working from home today because I'm so worked up that I'm making myself sick. Here's the latest; a while ago, one of my dear friends told me about a woman who was considering placing her unborn baby boy up for adoption. I spoke to the woman and we hit it off and talked for a long time about the importance of raising a baby in a loving home surrounded by family and friends....she has a great family of her own too. She was undecided at the time so Dan and I decided to remain cautious, but hopeful. In June, I learned that she had decided to keep the baby and as hard as it was to hear that, I made peace with it. Dan and I talked and decided to move forward with another embryo adoption. We wanted to wait until the September cycle so we could save money (which we didn't, really) and with the support of my parents and siblings, we selected new families to adopt embryos from. We are currently scheduled for a 9/20 transfer date. SEND US LUCK. Then, last week I learned the pregnant woman (due 10/15) has decided to place her baby up for adoption and would like Dan and I to be the baby's parents. This floored me. I almost passed out. Since Friday, we've been researching, talking to lawyers in her state and talking lawyers in Georgia. Even though this isn't the full blown adoption process, it's still very expensive! Since the baby is due mid October, we have little time to find that money. Which brings me to today, sitting in my bed with anxiety and stomach issues. I'm asking for prayers and support once again that we will find a way to make BOTH blessings happen and that this will all work out somehow. I'm worried we will end up with nothing and that's terrifying. I have a lot of love and support from everyone so I'm thankful to get this all out. Thanks for reading - sometimes I think I shouldn't write....but in this case, if anyone has any advice, ideas or experience with adoption, please let me know! Love always.