Another round unsuccessful.  No explanation yet.  We are heartbroken.  Not giving up though.  Just need money and opportunity.

No news yet but I had my blood drawn this morning and I'm waiting for official word. Unofficially, I did 3 home tests and they were all negative. I'm feeling hopeless about everything. I will update the blog if by some miracle I am pregnant, but it's not looking good and I won't be able to type anything if it's bad. Thanks for ALL the prayers and love. We are so lucky to have such amazing support and know that so many people are rooting for us. In the meantime, I'm sharing an article Dan and I did with Money Magazine. It hits the newsstands officially on Friday...but they gave us a preview. Thanks again for following our story. We love you all so much.

Update

Nothing new to report other than the remaining embryos did not survive the freezing process. Which means we are ALL in this time.  I talked to the doctor and only 20-25% of embryos survive in frozen egg donor cycles. So I will try to remain positive and pray that the next week will go by quickly.  I have a blood test on July 1 and will know the results that day.  Keeping the faith!

Embryo transfer day'

Procedure went really well.  The doctor and embryologist commented during the process about how well they nestled in the right place in my uterus.  So now we just wait.  I'm exhausted so I'm home drifting in and out of sleep.
So Monday we had 8 embryos, we put 2 in and may or may not have 2 to freeze.  Four did not survive the week.  The embryologist said that's very typical when using frozen eggs.  Obviously I'm disappointed because we may not have anything to freeze BUT I feel optimistic about this and so do the doctors.

I will update as things unfold. Thank you for all the love and support!

Catching Up

Without going in to all the details of how we got to the place we are now......I thought I'd share what's going on lately.  Dan and I decided to pursue parenthood using an egg donor.  This gives us a higher chance of success and since we are so low on money, morale, sanity, etc......we decided to go for it.  Right now I'm preparing my body for the embryo transfer next week.  Please keep us in your thoughts (if anyone is reading this!).  I will keep you posted.

Obviously I haven't written in a while.  Blogging was no longer therapeutic for me and it seemed it was all doom and gloom.  That being said, the last post was so sad and I want people to know I'm in a good place.  Dan and I are pursuing alternate methods to conceive.....and if we succeed, I may be back if writing becomes a positive thing for me again.  But in the meantime know this......as much as the sadness, the overwhelming anxiety, stress and negativity we've experienced these last five years....there has been greater beauty, friendship and love shown to us.  You could look at our situation and think us unlucky, but we know we are LUCKY to have people like you that love us and care about our journey.  The greatest lesson I've learned is to never question "Why Me?" and instead, ask yourself "What"?  What do I need to do to fix this, to turn it around into something good?  To get the ending I deserve?   I hope you all know that if you EVER need a shoulder to cry on, or to laugh so hard, you'll pee your pants.....please reach out to Dan and me!

Procedure was done yesterday.  It was awful and now Dan and I are focused on healing mentally and physically.  I won't be posting for a while.  Thank you so much for keeping up with us and letting me share our story.   Happy Thanksgiving to all and love you all so much!