Third time a charm?

I went to my gyno for a sonohysterogram last week. If you haven't had the pleasure of having one, let me tell you....it's painful, uncomfortable and annoying. Basically, they use the lovely speculum and insert a catheter into your uterus. Then shoot saline through the catheter and watch on the ultrasound monitor as the water spreads throughout your uterus. It's like reverse peeing. Ridiculous. Anywho, mine went really well. The doctor says my uterus is perfect. They think the shadow on the ultrasound was probably just endometrial tissue. So I headed back to the fertility clinic, RBA with the results. The doctor's plan for me now is to increase my clomid dosage, put me on Estrace (estrogen) and progesterone. I took progesterone when I did IVF...boy, it makes you NUTS. So add higher Clomid and estrogen to the mix and I will be a raving psycho. I'm also going to try acupuncture this time. I really, really feel like my stress level and depression is affecting me in an adverse way. I need to take better care of myself and stop focusing on the negative. It's amazing how rejuvenated I can feel after spending time with my girlfriends. They are amazing. So, until mid August, my focus is on my health. Cheers!

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--

I'm better now. I am not feeling so dire as I was last week. I'm not going to lie, it sucks inside...but whining about it doesn't fix it. What to do now? TRY AGAIN. I am headed to the doctor tomorrow for a sonohysterogram. They are going to look at my uterus to make sure I don't have any scar tissue, or anything else that would affect conceiving. If everything looks ok, we will try again next month. Thanks for the prayers and love. Wouldn't have made it through the last 5 days.

It's been a while

I know I haven't posted in a while....especially since I was so good about it. The truth is that I've lost my "mojo" and haven't had the same enthusiam since before our IVF trip. The last month has been so difficult. I've kept my head up but deep down, I've felt so unhappy and realizing that time moves on and now I'm another year older.
After some thought, Dan and I decided to move forward with IUI. We went back to RBA, the original clinic that diagnosed us and set the process in motion. I took clomid, used the fertility monitor, waited until we got the "smiley" face and went in to be inseminated. I waited almost two weeks. This past Wednesday night, I told Dan I had a bad feeling. I just knew something wasn't right. I went into work yesterday and still felt weird. There are 4 girls in my office that are pregnant right now. Everyone is joking about how there's something in the water. And yesterday, another girl was making her rounds in the office announcing her pregnancy. I started to feel sad so I went to the bathroom to pull myself together. And sure enough, I realized I had started my period. Nice, huh? I packed my things and went home. I've been crying for the past 36 hours. We failed again. I will take some time to be sad and angry...but I will pick myself up again. We will try again. the journey continues.....