It's been a while

I know I haven't posted in a while....especially since I was so good about it. The truth is that I've lost my "mojo" and haven't had the same enthusiam since before our IVF trip. The last month has been so difficult. I've kept my head up but deep down, I've felt so unhappy and realizing that time moves on and now I'm another year older.
After some thought, Dan and I decided to move forward with IUI. We went back to RBA, the original clinic that diagnosed us and set the process in motion. I took clomid, used the fertility monitor, waited until we got the "smiley" face and went in to be inseminated. I waited almost two weeks. This past Wednesday night, I told Dan I had a bad feeling. I just knew something wasn't right. I went into work yesterday and still felt weird. There are 4 girls in my office that are pregnant right now. Everyone is joking about how there's something in the water. And yesterday, another girl was making her rounds in the office announcing her pregnancy. I started to feel sad so I went to the bathroom to pull myself together. And sure enough, I realized I had started my period. Nice, huh? I packed my things and went home. I've been crying for the past 36 hours. We failed again. I will take some time to be sad and angry...but I will pick myself up again. We will try again. the journey continues.....