Yikes!

I haven't posted in a while mainly because NOTHING exciting has been happening in the last several weeks. In fact, I'm going CRAZY because I have no control over anything anymore. At least for now. Dan had his first follow up appointment with Dr. Witt, who did his surgery. Unfortunately, his counts have not changed. He still does not produce live sperm. There are so many things that fluster us about this, mainly that we don't know when he will start producing because the doctor said it could be tomorrow, could be 15 months from now. UGH. So we sit and wait. And wait. And try and wait. Pure torture. And it seems everyone around me and in Hollywood for that matter..are getting pregnant. I can't help but wonder, when will it be us??? I'll be 39 in a little over a month and it's killing me. I want no acknowledgment of the day. I want to pretend it doesn't exist. I'm not giving up. And most days, I have a positive attitude. But for now, posts will be few and far between until we finally get some positive news to write about. xoxo