Frozen Embryo Transfer Update

I can't remember who I've told what at this point, and I'm so inconsistent in updating the blog.  I honestly don't know how I'm up and functioning each day.  I have grown so obsessed with trying to make this all happen, ordering medications, talking to doctors, reading stories on the web, etc.  So here's where we are.....I have started taking estrogen vaginally.....it's a lovely thing I have to do at night before bed.  Not pleasant and sorry for the over-share......then, I went to the doctor last week for a baseline ultrasound and my uterus looks healthy.  No cysts or masses so that means we can move forward with the frozen embryo transfer.  The major thing they are doing different this time is adding an aggressive plan to make the embryos attach and STICK this time.  Starting Monday, Dan will have to administer progesterone oil shots in my ass every night for 10 days.  For those that don't know what this is, it is literally a thick oil in a 22 gauge needle! I know Dan will take great pleasure in stabbing me with a huge needle.  All these meds have made me a raging psycho.  One minute I'm crying, the next I want to rip his face off.  But I digress..... Once all that is done, I believe this is when we will be traveling to Augusta for the transfer.  We have two beautiful embryos left waiting to be implanted.  I am trying to do all that is necessary to prepare my body for this.  I'm eating better, trying to exercise more and drinking smoothies that have all kinds of nutrients that make me feel great.  Other than that, it's in God's hands.  I really hope this is it.  I will never give up, but would LOVE to know that I'm pregnant, especially as my 40th birthday is fast approaching and I'm in a full blown panic.  Stay positive and pray!!  Love to all.