Z Baby Quest

I had a dream last night that I gave birth to a baby girl and didn't remember any of it. I had to be put to sleep for the labor and birth so when they showed me the baby, I didn't believe she was mine. And the doctors and nurses and family were asking me her name and I had no clue because I was so out of it and didn't even know what my own name was. And she wasn't a newborn, she was more like a "soap opera" baby where they come out looking six months old. Weird, right? I think my subconscious is coming up with a Plan B already if this next IVF doesn't work. Many people are asking what we will do if it doesn't and the question they ALWAYS ask is, "Have you thought about adoption"? The answer is yes, we have and it's a HUGE undertaking. I'm focused right now on being healthy and centered and making this time work!! I started the Lupron shots on Monday....I do them right before bed. Lupron causes the pituitary gland to release high amounts of FSH and LH (luteinizing hormone) for several days until its stores are depleted. This controls my LH surge and enables the doctor to control the premature maturation of eggs. The side effects are making me a little queasy and giving me some mother-f%^&ing headaches. The doctors have decided to perform TESA on Dan, which is the less invasive sperm extraction procedure a day or two before my egg transfer. This ensures we have the HEALTHIEST egg and sperm for them to use to create the embryos. At our ages, our eggs and sperm aren't "top notch"...so this way, the doctors can look at them up-close! I don't start the heavy duty stimulating medications until next week. It's looking like the procedures will be the second week of July. So cross fingers and toes that it all goes smoothly and on schedule. Thanks again for love and support!