Holidays

I hate this post because I already know I completely sound like "woe is me".  But holidays suck.  Yes, it's awesome having time off work to relax and sleep in.  But it's not fun figuring what to do on days that traditionally  revolve around family fun.  When I was little, my family went to our neighborhood pool for a July 4th bike parade, where we decorated our bikes with streamers and rode around the streets as our parents followed.  After the parade was a day filled with swimming, pool games and contests.  It was amazing.  I always wanted to raise my kids in a neighborhood like mine where all the families knew one another and had such a strong sense of community.  But that hasn't happened.  Dan and I don't know where we belong.  It's not right.  

So what do we do?  We make the best with where we are today I guess.  And keep hoping that the next holiday will bring something better.

We have an appointment with Dr Hasty on July 23.  The practice will be discussing our case this week and try to determine why the embryos didn't attach and why their quality was not perfect with 21 year old eggs.  Dan and I are beyond frustrated.  We trust everything the doctors tell us so when things don't go the way they say, we wonder if anyone knows what the hell they are doing.  I hope we get answers.  And I hope we don't have to stop trying. I'm not ready.