Doctor follow up this morning. I've healed well and everything looks great. BUT, (god I hate but's) polyps are like weeds....you can cut them out, but most likely they will grow back. So, he tells me, if we are going to pursue IVF, or any other assisted reproduction, we need to move forward...like NOW. He says as early as 6 months from now I could have another one growing. Or I could not. They don't know. And he also tells me how my eggs are 37 and I've got about 2 more years before they worry about egg production. Thanks, we didn't know that!$*(#&*&* Hey says if we are doing anything at the fertility clinic, make an appointment, basically for yesterday because they don't want anything interfering with the new treatment we pursue. New treatment? Ummm, we don't know what we are doing. We don't have 15k....so he hands me this brochure (pictured) and I guess these clinics are so popular now, they offer seminars so you and other couples can sit there and learn about IVF. And really? Whose decision to add the babies on to the brochure? Nice touch! I don't see babies or pregnant women EVERY WHERE I go!! And I know all about IVF, the procedure, the process, the pain and sadly the COST. I don't need to sit in another seminar.
Dan and I have decided to seek counseling to help us deal with all this. It takes me little (and Dan a lot) to admit you need help navigating through the pain and anger. The counselor is very nice and helping us work out our sorrow and create a plan on how to come together as a team and work toward new possibilities. Personally, I'm doing and feeling better. I have my moments....like the time I visited my friend in the antepartum wing at Piedmont Hospital and as they wheeled in a new mom holding her baby, I broke down completely. I'll be ok. To anyone who says "what's the hurry"? Um, I'm turning 38 on Friday!!! I am going to figure out what to do come hell or high water!
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