Gloomy days

I just want to say thanks for the messages and emails. They mean so much to me. I'm sorry if I don't call you back right away. Honestly, I can't even think about this without either getting sooo upset and MAD. I have been doom and gloom all week. My only lifeline is Facebook. It makes me envious to see how so many people are traveling to fun places and doing fun things and angry that this process has put our lives on hold for almost four years now. We are never going to give up but that also means we remain captive by the situation. Ugh, I hate myself for being full of self pity....it's just one of those days. My period started and has hit me like a ton of bricks. Sooo much pain and a constant reminder of our situation. Bah. I'll go now. Sorry for the sadness!