Two week wait

This is by far the hardest part of the process. A total mind fu?k. You are on all this progesterone and estrogen that make you so emotional, not to mention their effects mimic pregnancy symptoms. I am tired, my boobs hurt, back hurts, etc. So with the waiting, you are so tempted to do a home pregnancy test. Its been 7 days since my transfer, and about 7 days until my period, so naturally I'm tempted. I read up on it and find this;

"As tempting as it is, fertility patients are advised not to use home pregnancy tests. Home pregnancy tests can render false results for fertility patients, either negative or positive. A false positive can result because hCG is given to “trigger” ovulation and may remain in the blood and a home pregnancy test cannot determine the difference between the two. A false negative might occur because a low level of hCG may be undetectable in a urine test despite a pregnancy starting."

So I decide not to do one. Until I decide to do one. At 6am today because the world is supposed to end and I wanted to see if I was. And I get a negative result. What does this do? Puts me in a horrible state of mind. I throw out the rest of the tests in the box. I'm pissed. I'm scared. I wish I could kick my own ass. I can't go back to sleep. Uggggghhhhh!!!!! I need some reassurance. Maybe I will call the nurse. I wish I could sleep until I know it's safe to test with accuracy. Pray for us!!