Z Baby Quest

What a whirlwind the last week has been!  Last Monday, I got THE call that we had "matched" with a birth mom named Grace in Jacksonville Florida.  I spoke to the adoption attorney and she asked if we could come down there to meet Grace and her boyfriend James, the baby's biological father. We scheduled the meeting for Monday January 15.  Thankfully, I have family that lives in the area so they lovingly took us in and helped us relax the night before and morning of. 
The day of, we met at the attorney's office.  She had ordered us a nice lunch and we all ate together and talked a little bit about ourselves....our dogs, our families, our history of IVF's and loss.  But we mostly listened as Grace spoke about her life and what brought her to choosing adoption for her baby.  As you can imagine, this is harder for her.  Being in this position is so difficult and heartbreaking.  But for someone to decide to carry out a pregnancy, with the intention to place the baby for adoption is the most loving, selfless act a person can make.  Despite the daily heartache and stress Grace experiences, she is thinking of her baby first and what is best for him.  She knows she can't care for him the way she wants to right now.  She knows she can have a family someday, just not right now. 
And by the way, it is a HIM.  After lunch, we went to an ultrasound place with her and got to see the precious angel on the screen.  He was stretched out and waving and we saw ten fingers and toes.  We saw his spine and cute little belly.  All his measurements are normal and he's due to arrive around June 17. 

Nothing in the process is a sure thing.  We are indeed matched, but things can still change.  I'm terrified and will probably stay terrified until I hold the baby 48 hours after he is born and the consent is signed.  Right now Grace and James are safe, looking for a place to live and eating healthy and taking care of each other.  That's all I can ask for.  I have no control over this, just as I had no control over any of the IVF outcomes.  I hate that but that's how it is.  All I can ask is that you all continue to send us your support, love and strength.  I've seen the most amazing generosity  from you all and I'm telling you THAT is what keeps us going.  We love you all so much.  Love and more love.