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"Thank you, Carrie. I cannot tell how you much you helped us through this--your writing, suggested blogs on FB, phone convo... Please know I am here for you. I am there for venting (*** to celebrate***). Whatever you need. Xo. We are behind and beside you both!"

I got this email from a friend who recently ended her fertility journey. I can't tell you how sad it makes me that for whatever reason, amazing people have to give up on their dreams. Whether it's financial, physical, emotional.....it's just so heartbreaking. I've encountered so many inspiring people along my journey. Women who have endured multiple miscarriages, poking and prodding, chemical pregnancies and much, much more......and they still have the courage to get up every day and put on a smile. I'm also blown away by the support and love of our friends that email me on Facebook, text messages and overall encouragement. I tell myself every day that there's a blessing somehow in all this. I have never felt so loved....it's like every day is your wedding day because people are constantly lifting you up with love and support and showing how much they care about Dan and me. My hope is that everyone knows how eternally grateful I am. I only hope that I'm the same kind of friend to you all as you are to me. I do try every day to show my love and support for the people I care about. Ok, I have to stop because I'm typing at work and crying at my desk. My coworkers know I'm mental but still...... Here's where I am; calling, researching and trolling the internet for cheap meds. I've gotten a lot of insider information on how to obtain less expensive medications....it's all about the right timing and filling out tons of forms. Nothing has materialized yet, but I'm hopeful. So, if you are ever feeling anxious, sad, happy, alone, WHATEVER, I'm always here for support! XOXO